shocking.

Yes it's true... This is me updating my blog.
woah.

I'm not entirely sure where to start!
I'm laying in bed in my new room... I moved out of home on thursday and am now living with a family from church.
They're great!
I'm excited to go home for a sunday roast tomorrow though!
I hope my brother and sister will be there too!

Bible school is amazing... although we just had a week off and it's felt like a year!
I'm excited for monday.
Trusting for my financial miracle to come before then!

Life is so wacky right now. I'm literally living on a wing and a prayer... Needing God more than ever. Maybe not though... maybe i'm just realising my need for Him more than ever...
Learning to need Him before people too...
Sometimes i can't tell if I'm just keeping people at an arm's length though... if I'm TRYING to stand in faith and In Christ Alone... if I'm genuinely at peace
or
am I actually not facing realities? Am I keeping a "professional distance" from people to try to protect myself and not be seen as vulnerable... or stupid....?!

All I know is I crave God more and more.
I crave freedom.
but sometimes it's almost like I shy away from it all...

Life, for this past month, has been more busy than I've ever known it... and I am only surviving by the grace of God!
But these past couple of days it's been so so so hard not rushing around!
I thought I was desperate for a break... but now I find that I don't actually know how to deal with one!
I should have done homework today... Lots of homework...
I wanted to make lots of excuses about why I didn't...
But I won't go into it! I'll spare the details lol!
I will just have to do a couple of late nights/early mornings...

Trust Steadily.
Hope Unswervingly.
Love Extravagantly.

I am a human being. Not a human doing.

Today, I miss my friends.