contradiction?

please don't make your life so filled with god things that it's not even about God anymore.
please don't talk about freedom so much that you forget to be free.
please don't talk about love so much that you forget to love... and be loved...

inspiration... don't just follow me... inspire me!

I have a diary. I should remember to use it. And then read it!

i know i need to be asleep... so why am i awake?!

www.myspace.com/alierichardson
- the best kept secret. EVER.

what do i do with that creepo husband (to someone ELSE!) that keeps hitting on me? I'm so grossed out.

its their one year anniversary today. =D

early morning proof reading and editing methinks!

H2O

I decided that I'm going to have to detox you.
you're invading my soul way too much.
and you don't even know.

also.
i love laying on the bonnet of the car... looking up at stars...looking across at the sea... ipod playing softly...barefoot... just listening... just thinking... just praying...
there's something so simple about it.
so effective though.
so freeing.

are you ever just SO ready for bed?
so many late nights.
you blame me... but um.. we all know i'm not the one at fault here =p

i was brave.
and confronted things.
and i think it's just gonna be ok.

April got here really fast.
REALLY fast!
Whew! Time really does fly!

yawn

gosh. i really should write in my diary!
my life is way too busy to remember what I'm meant to remember!
especially when my brain forgets it's a brain and acts like jelly.

finally. season 3.
maybe after a little break! =p

dying battery.

Got to prepare for friday's youth group...
Deep.

Shazaam.

Darrrrrling. Morrrre.
I down't tawlk liyuke thayat.

7 1/2 weeks till graduation.

7 weeks 6 days till 1st June.
hahaa!!! You think I can't keep a secret from you...
watch me.
Go ahead. Make My Day, Sparky!

Love H2O.

The Friendship Breakthrough.

This last week has been so up and down.
I've been sick for the best part of 6 weeks... and this week i just got to the point of "I'm tired... I"m done with this!"
In the time of my physical weakness and pain... I let myself get a weakened spirit too...
Bad news. Cause when Im in that state it's so easy for me to battle with insecurities and fears... and i overanalyse...
but God is so good.
This week I had such a breakthrough.
Also.
I've had a couple of conversations with friends... about relationships. and friendships. and love languages. (Physical touch, gifts, quality time, acts of service and words of affirmation)
It got me thinking about the way i receive love best.... I was asked my five love languages in order of preference.. I gave two different answers during the course of the night... but im still unsure on a final list.

I'm the kind of girl who likes cuddles.. and my hair being played with... and i like when you remember something specific that i said... or like...
I like it when you notice random things that I do - quirky little things that maybe i don't even notice about myself.
I like it when you're friends with me in front of your other friends (bad experiences of some people being my friend UNTIL we were with their friends...)
I like it when your face lights up as soon as you see me? yeah.
I like it when you let me freak out and/or share my heart... without telling me I'm stupid... or staying silent... or changing the subject...
I like it when you listen to my random stories the whole way through. even if there's no point to it. and let's face it... there probably isn't!
I like it when you let me into your heart too... beyond surface friendship.
I like when you stick up for me.
I like it when we can talk for hours.
I like it when we can sit in a non-awkward silence.
I like it when we wrestle.
See... I get to certain points in relationships of any kind... and I fuh-reak out!
for real.
But i like when you know me... and work through stuff with me.
I like when we have crazy random adventures.
I like that we actually... DO things. and not just talk about what would be a good idea to maybe possibly do at somepoint in our lives.
I like when we don't just HAVE memories (although i LOVE that!) but we MAKE memories that are worth remembering.
I like it when you let me do random things for you...
I like it when you don't let me do random things for you too.
I like it when you hear what I say... and then understand what I actually mean.
I like random texts.
I like messages on my facebook wall.
I like to know you.
I like to compromise with random music likes and dislikes.
I like it when you tell me what I need to hear. but you know what I sometimes want to hear... and tell me that instead... =p
I like it when you know when I need to be held... and when I need space.
I like it when you ask me challenging questions.
I like it when you correct me... not out of anger... or frustration... but out of love.

I like a lot of things. and I like discovering this randomness that I like.
I like to know what you like too.
tell me sometime.

oh yeah.

and THAT is why I shouldn't play around with sarcasm and jokes.
I forget how sensitive I am.

"are we still friends?"
"duh!"

I've never known anyone brave enough.

two till the end of the season.
yuuusssssss!!!

(I'm so glad that you're online bud... I kind of enjoy our random dorky chats.)

i love it when my room is clean.

Today I feel accomplished.
and ready to cry.
but a good kind (i think)
you know the "ok I've had enough. I give up... Jesus you're all i need" kind of tears?

argh! ok but seriously I feel like i shouldn't have been so vulnerable to you.
wrong timing.
I feel like El Stupido.

and I now I wonder about that saying
"behind every joke is an element of truth"
or however it goes.



do you really think that?
tell me what you really think why don't you!

but no...

bring on breakthrough, man!